Near the paved cemetery road on the 404 side....of the property
You should be able to drive by and with out getting out of your car see the head stone...
2 finger/ heart, and a board... Logo... With his name...
Catherine Harris is here she is my great grand mother....
Hiltons great great grandmother.....
Its may 9th 2011 3;00pm kat ( hiltons 18 year old sister and I wait for the truck that carries the stone,
1600 lbs of love,
18 degress Celsius,
sunny,
warm,
little wind... Perfect spring day,
not a cloud in the sky,
the truck we are in has
"you make me horny long time" playing on the stereo...
kat looks over to me slowly,
streams of tears off her red eyes,
painfully she smiles and asks me; " what is wrong with you" ......
I reply:
" hilton would have loved this moment...." He would have giggled and called me a retard".....
Kat and I just had a moment, heheheheheh..... Not fucking funny....
Its not fair that I'm here wait to place the engraved stone of my beautiful baby boy.... He turns 21 years on tomorrow,
I can't contain the pain, fear and anxiety I'm feeling as I listen to the Beep beep of the truck backing up,
Josef the cemetery dude with a smile says hello as he polices the event of lowing the stone on its resting place for all eternity.
Kat sobs, you can see the tear, but the rev, of the truck engine overwhelm s every other sound,
Josef asks if he can leave because I seem to be in control....
I'm not,
Kat and I hug infront of the stone.... Balled, I told her as my shoulders shook, how sorry I am that she has lost her brother
I ask her what type of flowers to bring... She said she want everyone to bring pansies.... Cause hilton was one......
I'm tired.....
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I have lashed out at so many people, yelled, look for people to fight with, feeling like I'm out of control,
I have been so hard on my new girl friend leanne, she has to love me if she took that shit,
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Today is may 10 2011...
I love you hilton
HAPPY BIRTHDAY...
May 10 2011.... He would have been 21... 21 years old.... This is so fuck up
The hounsomes and the byrne clan came to the grave yard to say good bye..
I won't be writing on the blog anymore....
Not until the anniversary of his accident....
Thanks to everyone who has helped my family get thought the dog shit of a child dying
But I'm gonna take a break from purging, typing, venting and try to heal on my own alone
Hilton being gone has really fuck me over and has changed the way I see life, and the way I live,
I hope that the people who have read the blog, those 21 days... Those people who have watch the videos , those people who came to his celebration of life .... I hope all you have learned to love a little more and to live a little better because of this journey hilton has taken us on....
I love you buddy
God bless
Sweet dreams
Don't let the bed bugs bite....
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